1:59:55 today in the pouring rain

…and 50:40 last week (10K)

For whatever reason, I have newfound motivation to improve my life (aside from the career/monetary part of things).

Goals for the semester:
1. Eat healthier – more fruits and vegetables. find more recipes to cook interesting and delicious things.
2. Reduce stress – sleep before 1am, wake up and actually eat breakfast, don’t let work overwhelm me
3. Run more – half-marathon by the end of this year
4. Be happy! Life is awesome now and I hope I don’t lose this feeling anytime soon.

I want an excuse to blast my speakers at 60% volume or more. It seems like it’d be an interesting experiment.

Some things hit me much harder than I expect, and I have no idea how to deal with it. I don’t want to go to sleep because I know I’ll just end up thinking about it for hours on end and never actually get to sleep, so the only thing I can do is distract myself with work. Although I do have a propensity for getting lots of stuff done when I actually shut off my main distractions (aim and email). Let’s see what I can accomplish by tomorrow…

this cold weather is so sad – I’ve been staying in bed hours after I should be up and working just because i don’t want to face the cold. at least it’ll all be over in a few more days. also, my attention span is < 1 hour so it’s impossible for me to study anthing -.-

light at the end of the tunnel – looking forward to TBPsouthbay and/or TBPnorth

I’m kind of curious who actually reads these blurbs. Most of my old friends have drifted away and almost all of my new friends don’t know about this.

1. geometry wars is extremely addicting
2. i want another monitor with component input -.-
3. karaoke is really fun
4. my schedule for next semester is so screwed
5. i have too many personal projects to be able to focus on one for any meaningful length of time
6. someone said that i was not a typical eecs major (he wouldn’t have guessed I was an eecs major had he not known beforehand) – awww, i try so hard to give off the eecs vibe too just kidding, it’s nice to know i’m somewhat normal.
7. i want a couch in my room so i can play video games and watch movies on my monitor without having to sit in my chair
8. i haven’t sat back and stared at clouds for a long time
9. i wish i was an expert in a specific domain of computing – i’m kind of dabbling in everything and i’m a decent all-around person, but it’s kind of depressing knowing there isn’t an area that i really understand and can innovate/research new tangents
10. crushcrushcrush :]

self.beginNewExperience()
self.goto(new Party(TBP))
self.dance()
self.endNewExperience()
self.playGame(new RedAlert3())
self.sleep(8)

So many thoughts bouncing around my head right now. I’m not sure how to reconcile them all.

crap crap crap. I feel like I’m falling behind in all my classes and dragging down my teammates with me. I have like 2 or 3 projects/midterms every single week and it’s really starting to tax me. i’m not used to falling behind and it’s making me really sad…

wow, i’m really racking up these out-of-character experiences this semester. we went on a midnight (about 12:30am – 1:30) run/walk last night around berkeley northside/through campus. it was so spontaneous (we were going to play tag, but we didn’t have enough people), but i definitely do not regret it. i think we’re slightly crazy, but i really wanted to run, and it seemed like a fun thing to do. there are a surprising number of people still up and around at that time of day, especially biking/walking through campus. i wonder if it’s people who just stay in the labs for way too long, or if they’re just passing through after visiting a friend on the other side of campus. i really want to do it again though and then i stayed up until 4:30 cause i didn’t feel very (mentally) tired after running. strangest of all, my left bicep is sore now…instead of my legs. w. t. f.

I went ice skating on Friday and it reminded me so much of snow and skiing and snowboarding. I can’t wait for a tahoe winter retreat where there’ll be more than one or two friends to have fun with. I feel like unless you’re snowboarding competitvely, it’s much more fun with more people. But of course, I’ve never done it before so it’ll be a fun new experience, like so many of the other things I’ve done over the last few weeks.

I also ate lunch with Mike for the first time at Berkeley. Somewhat messed up, given that he’s my roommate, but we lead fairly different lives from day to day and we only talk once in a while. I should really try to maintain relationships with different people, but at least I know that other TBP people have the same problem with drifting friends that I do. Am I trying to justify my actions and choices and taking the easy way out? Or would it have happened anyway due to different circumstances? I wonder if I’ll ever really know for sure.